Sunday, December 04, 2005
7:27 AM ● myy dreamz..*'

("tis is jus a dream..and it isnt real..e ppl inside, may nt exist at all")
i had a dream last nitex till all e way tis morniin'*
i dreamt tat my dad's friendd..josh'
hu was a marriied man..wiif 3 kkiids'.
he was interested iin me..
he toldd my parents' tat he lkys me..
and thy takk it as a joke..
or sum kiind of a complientment,
theyy told me..
and so did i..'
but thiins startedd to gett out of handd..
he startedd to cum overr our place..

we werr lkyy..
"okiie..dun b rude.."
"jus let him iin"..
thn....
duriin churchh serviice..
("2nd serviice")
i was alone attendiin e serviie,
tat was wadd i thoughht..
butt he came walkiin besiide me..
i was lkyy..
tryiin my best to jus ignor hiim..
but still giviin him sum respect as
he's olderr thn me..
andd tat he was a pXXXXr
so i jus smiledd..
andd jus thn i saw hiis wiife..
walkiin pass me..
thn i lookedd at him,
and saiid..
y aree yeuu doiin tis..
dun yeuu hv a wiife and kiids'
dun makk me feel so guiitly..!
(straight to his face)
i sat dwn to a seat..
(i was sitin near to e edge)
and he sat 1 sit away frm me..
(as i told him to.., to decrease ppl's attention)
smilin'*
i jus ignor..
and pay my full attention infront..
thn i saw my dad serviin..
and i look at myy dad straightt in hiis eyes'
usiin my eye poiintiin to "him" !
thn my dad said..wld yeuu lkyy to sit infront..
he commented tat he was fined..
and i cldnt do anithin..but jus sat ther..
my dad brought his kid over..
and i place him beside me..
playin wif him..
and telliin josh, see wad a beautiful kid yeuu hv'
and he went black..
his kid started to cry..and i comfort him'
but he went crazy and slap him on his cheek.'
i went angry and scolded him..
sayin he's jus a baby!
a baby hu hardly noes hw to expressed himself'
"in a soft way,quiet wayy'"
my dad walk towards me took josh's son..
and left..
while i was left to face him..
he slowly moved..and sat right beside me..
thn i excuse myself to e lady's
and ....
-_-" HE came along..'
"shit..i cant escape!!"
i came out frm e lady's and
saw him sitin ther waitin for me..
i look up straight in his eye..
and he was tall tat i gt to "look up".
and i finallyy said let's tok'
and left e place..'
we sat in desert place.
and i told him..
i am nt interested in yeuu..
nor will i try to lky yeuu..
i wld nv let myself lky sumone hu's married wif kids..
and i wld never evr mak myself b sumone's 3rd party!!!
he said tat "u wld fall in luv wif me"
and tat i wasnt a 3rd party at all..
his marriage was alrdy unstable'
...
i had nthin to sae..
and jus took my leave..
and left..
he followedd behind me..
i turnedd and saiid in a verr fierce lookk..
i am goiin to a friiends' placee..
so leave me alone'!!
...
thn i walked myself to e bustop'
thinkin tat he had given up,
he drove his car towards e bustop and hon'*
i was so damn embrasse
(sum ppl are frm our church')
so i had no choice but to tak his car..
he smiled and drove me to my destination..
whn he had arrive at chinhui's hse..
(which annie was alrdy ther..)
i was tryin to tak off e safety belt,
("tryin" as i was nervous!he was lookin at me e entire time.)
whn i had finally took it off..
he asked if i am free to hv dinner wif him
i answered "NOoo"!
THN
his face moved right infront of mine..
lky our lips are gona touch each other..
my head was backin all e way..until it touchs e head cusion'
he said "if yeuu dun agree..i'm gona kiss"
i quickly agree..and left e car..
he laughed and was happi'
(lookin forward for later')
i told annie and chinhui was happened..
and thy wer shocked..
and amaze'
and i asked thm if thy cld cum along..
but both wasnt free.
i went dwn..
and saw him sitin in his car..
afraid tat i wld run away or wad..
-_-althought i was thinkin abt it..heheex!
he saw me..
started smilin so happi..
"jus lky a incconcent kid"
i was almost moved but came to my sense quickly'
remindin myself..
he's a married man!
he took me 2 a place filled wif delicious foOd.
after our dinner..
he drove me home..
andd
i slpt soundly aslp'
he reach e destination..
and while i was slpin,
i cld feel sumone watchin me..
thn gently i felt my lips bn kiss..
and it wasnt a normal kissed.'*
it was a tonuge kiss..
i blush..
and pretendd to wake up..
and pretend tat i noe nthin..
i lookedd ard..
and givin him a slpy look..
"reach alrdy?"
and quickly left!
omg..!he kissed me!
y dun i feel disgust?
am i..
dun tell me..i am in love wif him?!
oh god..
thinkin abt back thn..
i blush even mor!
and thinkk..
i actually dun hate him'
i lky guys hu are older thn me..
hu is mature enuff..
and wif money.."hu dun!"
...i jus dunno wad to do..'
e next dae..
he followedd me as usually..
wher ever i go..
whenever i go..
....
wad am i suppose to do..
after much consideration..
i decided to meet up wif him..
he suggested to meet over at his place..
thn i said..wadd abt ur wife?
ur kids?
he said tat he had 2 apartments'
so it was okkaye'*
i reach his place..takin a cab!
i press on e door bell..
he opened and smiledd..
draggin me into his plaCe'
i was amaze..
hw a guy's hse wld b tis tidyy..
i look towards e window view..
and saw such a nice scency..
and he called me..
i turned back and ther it was..
a meal he had prepared for me..
"no wonder, he apologise for nthin sayin tat he wldnt b able to tak me over, HERE"
we had our dinner..
and we sat dwm e hall place for a cup of tea..
he started sayin hw happi he was i agreed to cum over his place..
and etc'
thn i quickly cut into his sentnence..
and said..
tis is e last time we are gona meet..
i dun wanna see anibodii bein hurt by us..!
especially ur wife and 3 lovely kids'!
and i told him..
if yeuu reallie love me..
"gif me up!"
and he gave me a ver sad face..
makin me feel even mor guilty'*
. . . .
he turned towards e window'
and i am sure..i saw him tearin!
..wad am i supposed to do nw..
i cant gif in nw.

he told me to leave!
befor i regret..!
i walk towards him and apologiise..'
he turned and looks so serious!
pushiin me towards e sofa..
and said..
y cant yeu jus luv me for hu i am..
and ignor my backgrd..
and he started kissin me firecely'
i pushed him away..
and he said
"yeuu wan me to go back to my family?
ok thn..thn gif me your virginality!"
shocked by his wrds..
i was frighten!
and he smiled in a another wayy'
i started runnin for e door
and he continue on kissin me..
"dun yeuu wan me to go back to her(wife)?"
he asked..
and i stp movin and let him be..
(in my mind, tis mayb e last time i wld b meetin him)
so i KISSED him back..amazin'
i thought so myself..wher i gt so much of darein frm'
we embrace..
he carried me over to his bed..
hvin fear..
shiverin..
he stped..
and hugg me..
"i wldnt do animor thn tat."
once i heard wad he said i cried!
and said to him..
if onli i meant yeuu 1st befor ur lady(wife)
. . .
huggin each other till dawn..
we went our separate ways..

(to b continued~)

did thy meet up again..
did their feelings for each other jus ended?

xxxxxx

( Escape to the city. )