Thursday, November 06, 2008
12:00 PM ● im not gona celebrate my bday!it's tiring..

All i ever wanted was a day, i could celebrate my 21st bday with ALL my friends' and family..
all that thinkin of how am i gona afford for the chalet?food?cakes?and etc just wasted my time to actually book a decent chalet. (now i know why bren was s stress up abt then)

and now i declare, i dont want to celebrate my 21st bday! its a toture to actually use all my brain cells and think and think and think! yah it's easy if you have the support of your family and friends and all the money supported by others.
but i dont have it!! but that isnt a problem, i just needed the smallest support from ..
hahas.. why am i even feelin so upset for..hahas..and surprisingly i feel like crying..
i hate CRYING!!it makes me feel so HOPELESS!!
lol, i wanna Thanks!! bren and carol!!lol for helpin me when i actually needed help..
but im so sorry that i actually didnt book a chalet coz lol..there isnt any space?lol and i need MONEY~ for my life,my bills, my schoolfees and etc.
What you think my parents are gona pay them forever? DreamOn..!!


WHOA!!i feel so much better after letting out a big yet quiet cry~..
hahas.. hate crying but love the "after"~

All i wanted was to invite all my friends' to my 21st birthday party..
from schools'
:bpps (>6)
:regent (11++)
:yishun ite (12++)
:cca, QP (>2)
:dover ite (22++)
:yep (16)

from work'
:sentosa (39++)
:samsung cs (>10)
:prudential (2)

(Which i am still cutting dwn)
but it ended up overflowing like i was celebrating my 80 da shou("80th birthday")
although, from all the comments, i still wanted to do so..

from the nerve breaking, "whether i should celebrate my birthday, at a chalet of just below my place" a verse from a chalet & bbq..
i was simple..i had no big bucks, so i stick to bbq only..over at my place..
then my family started giving me comments like.."21st birthday, its once a lifetime" and they all voted for chalet~ and as you noe..i started going back to sq 1...
chalet VS bbq..then bren suggested to hlp if i open a chalet..which tat would be great then FINALLY after when i decided..lol it's too late..all booked..wahahas..

xxxxxx

( Escape to the city. )