Saturday, May 01, 2010
2:31 AM ● Mess up.

And i mean literally,
i was suppose to present my name card design together with my concept..
but i wonder why i panic and everything well quick and fast.
too fast, i don't think my mouth is moving the same speed as my brain.
Neither was the rest of the classes.
SHIT!! i feel so wasted.

Why why why..
Argwhh!! all i can do now is to do better the next time!
AJA AJA FIGTHING!!!

Mixed feeling actually..
i was 1st, shocked when Mr Azzy?
(okay fined i admit, i can't remember his name. lol back to topic.)

Each lecturer from each class are to select 3 students to present their name cards and concept, or to talk about themselves.
which aishah was saying, she got a feeling, he would call my name.
and i was just about to say,"no la" then just exact as those words came out of my mouth..
...
he called my name.
suai or what right? i was like stone, then panicked.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
(This was exactly how things was going on inside of my head!!)

i had no idea how to present myself, it was a shocked and both honour.
but still SHOCKED!!!
oh-man, i was wondering..what am i gonna say..
it's so easy explaining to friends or lecturers.
but why is it so difficult to present it to 3 classes?

i wonder why too.
i hate being nervous. so i tried to calm myself down.
which worked, till he called my name when it's my turn to present.
i just lost it. everything i planned to say just went haywire.
not in sequence. and worst off. it was too fast of a speed that even i wonder what i'm trying to say. i feel so embarrass to even face Mr Azzy. but thank god when that was over..
during the one-to-one consultation, he didn't asked me anything and just acted normal.
which was kind of "considerate" of him.
coz if he had asked on the spot, i would have felt even more bad about it and feel guilty for not doing a good job. including being his student, and i mess up. bad~
(maybe it's because he had been a lecturer for so long that he got use to it and couldn't be bothered, or he was just plain good and considerate of a lecturer; i'll rather choose option B)

After today's incident, i kind of admire those whom can actually present without even panicking or worry. or maybe it's just the appearance, which was still cool.
-_-" wonder what's happening..
i wasn't like this before.. wonder if poly has a effect of exposing the other part of you, you didn't know of..maybe?

I shall end here, as this is getting draggy.
p/s: my stomach is still feeling explosive from dinner.

MichelleRachel*
Face my fears, and fear shall face me.

xxxxxx

( Escape to the city. )