Sunday, July 11, 2010
8:56 PM ● Not in the mood.

I'm sooo not in the mood today.
i was fined this morning, till late afternoon..
the mood had spread, it feels like somethings wrong..
leading my conscious mind thinking that maybe something might happen.

it's not an ornament or a bad feeling.
instead, it's like today, I'm living in a mono tone world with just gray and black in my life without music. which normally i would feel neutral or super lame but not today.

today just seems..like a sick holiday to me.
maybe somebody out there is bad-mouthing me.
or perhaps somebody out there hates me.
lol. who knows.
feeling so sleepy right now.
but it's just 9.03pm,
and that is not normal, considering i always get super hyper late at night.

A update from my previous entry..
WEBD had postponed from last week to this week!! Hooray~
BDS marketing is due tomorrow.
DCOM presentation which was last Monday, was mistakenly remembered wrongly and was actually tomorrow.
BDS live client posters design draft is due this Tuesday.

workload is smoother but not lighter.
oh ya, Friday health checkup appt.
AGAIN~
i realise the doctor never fail to piss me off.
they never give me an answer to the problem,
but all they can do is "i think", "it could be", "maybe". always not a confirmed answer.
i know that they can't confirm with a final answer, because they are AFRAID that it may not be so. but considering the money i have spended. it is just rubbish.
I know i normally would have understand them, but not today.
today is not my day.
and today shall be my "speak it all" day!!
(i know i have friends working in the same line industry, so don't take it directly.
if that doesn't work..maybe you should stop reading
or just try to understand how a patient would feel..)

can you imagine, how many wasted times i have spend in the health checkup..
with so many money spended and no confirm source found?

money is precious! And i hate using my parents money,
it just gives me the guilt!!
ya! it's normal to take allowance from your parents,
but are you sure?
hello~ have you ever wondered how old are you now?
is it really okaye?
you can actually earn your own money!
don't have the time? then ATLEAST stop spending unnecessary MONEY!!
when i say unnecessary!! i mean stuff which you DONT NEED TO BUY!!!
like stuff you desire and don't need to have!!!
it's okaye to spend money on what you "desire" once in a WHILE. and when i say
once in a while, doesn't apply to every week or every month!!
I seriously wonder, if people from the age of 20 is still not feeling the guilt and spending money like water, your only reason should be "I'm rich, my family is loaded" or..
"i am an asshole and i don't care!!"
kids from the age of 19 and below should already be feeling this soon, if you don't?
means
1. your parents really love you so much that you are unaware as you are overprotective and still to young to understand the money issue.
2. you already know, you can't be bothered or can't control.
3. other explanation, which has hidden secrets. (i think, or hope so)

-_-" why am i so worked up for..all of a sudden.
anyways, hope children,teenagers,young adult would spare a thought for your parents.
money isn't earn like clicking your fingers and hoping money would drop from the sky out of nowhere. If you really saw how hard your parents work to raise you up, i doubt you will spend money like water, but if you are aware but still not doing something about it, you should reflect on yourself. for those who are already doing something, thumbs up!!

Michelle Rachel.
this post is an outburst.
as I'm not restricting myself.
but at least i spoke my mind today.

Time check: 9.29PM

xxxxxx

( Escape to the city. )